"This was my dream. My wish. And it didn't come true. So I'm taking it back. I'm taking them all back." Mouth, Goonies.
This isn't how I thought it would be. This isn't how it was supposed to be. But this is how it is. So I'm taking myself back. The parts that I shushed. The parts I made small. The parts I tucked away to serve us and not me. Not realizing that doing that didn't serve us at all.
There were discussions. Talk of options. But to stay a family of 4, we needed to be 100%. I wasn't. And when I heard the heartbeat, it was decided for me. I knew that I was likely choosing between a 3rd baby and my marriage. I wasn't wrong. I also didn't make the wrong choice.